Intentionality

It’s been a while. I haven’t been positing as often as I thought I would when I set my goals at the beginning of the year (here were my goals for the year).  Truthfully, I have quite a few posts started and a couple others I’ve been thinking about but I haven’t wanted to put “pen to paper” so to speak.

My reason? Intentionality.

As many of you know we recently moved into a new house across town. The house is a brand new build in a brand new neighborhood.  We are in LOVE with this new house that we are slowly making a home, but as I’ve said, it is a rather slow process.

During this time I was working on some classes for my MBA. I started a new job across base. I applied for a new job in Fort Collins. I was accepted at the new job as a ROTC instructor at Colorado State University.  I finished my job in Cheyenne, took a 4-week online class for my MBA, and I’ve been training for RAGBRAI (which I talked about here, here, and here).

Overall, as usual, life is just a wee bit “full” right now.. to say the least. It has been crazy filled with new experiences and growth and change, but also filled with great family time and time with friends. Because of how full it’s been…I’ve focused on INTENTIONAL actions with the purpose of truly living life and appreciating God’s blessings.

Webster defined intentional as “made, given, or done with full awareness of what one is doing.” To extend that, the definition of intend is to “have in mind a purpose or goal.” In other words, to be intentional is to do something with full awareness of your goal.  Of course, in order to be intentional you must know your goals, so that is the first step.

If I didn’t make time to play blocks with Sky, go on walks with the hubby, watch White Collar and Downton Abby with my sister, or go sit and talk at the dinner table, I wouldn’t have nearly the relationships that I do. But, I have to be INTENTIONAL about my time. And part of that has been taking a break from this blog.

All that being said, I am feeling the call to write once again. To share. To put my thoughts on paper, so here I am. Being intentional about my writing and sharing and thinking.

Looking forward to more time together with you all! Here’s to intentionality.

#FoldsOfHonor Memorial Day Weekend

Tonight was the welcome dinner for the Patriot Cup. The past couple of years we have attended this tournament in Tulsa, OK in support of the Folds Of Honor foundation, which supports wounded or killed in action veteran’s families through scholarships. After the dinner, they held a US flag retirement ceremony, which was the first I had ever seen. It was a beautiful ceremony to set the tone of the weekend, which is to remember those who are no longer with us.

I think it is beautiful to remember and compare those who are gone right next to experiencing the innocence of young life. Today, Sky got to swim in a pool for the very first time. Although he is too young to remember it, his being here is a true testament that young and old, despite the conflict, the US supports it’s troops!

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I Hate the Phrase “I’m too busy!”…

1 February 2014

“…But sometimes I find myself wanting to say that very thing!

In this season of life, I am a wife, mother, and full time Air Force officer. I am a nursing, cloth diapering, bible-study going mom. I am a dish washing, house-cleaning, movie watching wife. I am working on my Masters of Business Administration with 3 classes this semester. I am training for a bike race, running when I can, and focusing on eating healthy. I am BUSY. There’s no other way to put it.

BUT do you Ever have those friends who always seem frazzled and overwhelmed? When you ask them how they’ve been, their only response is “busy?” And then they go on to describe a litany of activities you feel like they are perhaps too busy for you? Sometimes I do.

In the past, I felt like the person I just described, as in, the one who was “too busy.” I have always had school, sports, Girl Scouts, etc. There was always more to do or more people to see. Involvement in lots of different activities and meeting with different people can be productive and help invest in the future but there is something to say for “too much”.

This year I am focusing on being “intentional.” Intentional with my time. My friends. My money. My priorities.

If I ever come off as “too busy” for my family or friends I pray that someone will say something and remind me of my priorities. I pray that I can remain focused and to enjoy the little moments. I pray for intentionality and focus on the truly important in life. I pray for peace and grace through this time of season.”

I actually started this post on at the beginning of February. The fact that I am just posting it now is proof that it has been one “busy” semester. The semester ended beautifully with good grades, a finished project at work, and my husband winning his first golf tournament.  It doesn’t always finish this way, but looking back now at this post with 20/20 vision certainly gives me a different perspective.  I can now see much clearer what I was working towards.  I can see that the hardwork was worth it. I can see that the trust we had in Him is truly beautiful and that He will provide and give us our needs in His time.  He will not give us what we cannot handle.  He will use the difficult times to mend us and to bend us and to shape us and to teach us.  I love how much I grew this past semester and can’t wait for much more growth to come.

Thank you to those who have supported me over the past crazy semester and who will support me and love me in the future! Especially my  husband who is an amazing supporter!

God is SO Good.

I have been having trouble thinking about “what” to blog about because it has seemed like such a long time since I wrote about anything at all.  There have been so many changes in our life that it is hard to update everything in one post.  A new house. A new job for Tom. A new job for me. Sky is almost one. A promotion. A golf tournament win.  Birthdays. Anniversaries. All of it. I feel like the most important thing to say is, “God is so faithful and SO good.”

Recently as many of you know, my husband, separated from the Air Force.  This is what we call it when someone is no longer in the military but they did not work 20 years, and therefore, did not “retire” from the Air Force.  He separated with the hopes and dreams and prayers of pursuing and becoming a professional golfer.  Recently, one of our new neighbors said to my husband, “Oh, you mean you actually golf for a living? I guess I will start telling ‘everyone’ that you are actually a professional golfer.”  We aren’t exactly sure who ‘everyone’ is but we do get the gist that there are those out there who might think we are a little be crazy for leaving a stable, steady, well-paying job to pursue something with so much “seeming” risk.

What most people do not understand though is that every decision we make from where and when to buy a house to what job we apply for or take, is not our risk.  It is not our decision.  It is not necessarily our desire or want.  Rather, we trust and know that what is God’s will and God’s desire will occur.  It is most certainly our desire that Tom is successful in his career and that we will lead comfortable lives, in which we may give generously to others.  However, as much as we desire happiness and health and lots of happy healthy kids, we desire EVEN more, that God’s will be made known to us and that we are lead to our callings to best serve and love Him all for His glory.

I think tonight I am quite reflective as I sit at a new, white Ikea desk in our relaxing blue office.  I sit here and think.  I reflect on the trust we have given to God.  I reflect on the community He has surrounded and provided for us in this stage in life.  I reflect on how Amazing He is and how He turns everything in the ways of His will.  I reflect on how the more we trust in Him, the more it seems we live in freedom and joy in His love. God is SO good.  He IS the truth and the Life. He IS the one guding us on our path.  He is our provider and our father and our comforter and our light in this world. And He is all we need in this world.

Why I love my growing 10-month old!

DSC_6113Have you ever found yourself so in love that your every waking thought and action revolves around one person (or perhaps several little people)? Well, if you are a mom or a dad then I’m SURE you know this feeling.  But do you every wonder why you love such a little thing (besides the obvious reason that babies are so cute)? I mean, come on, your sleep is scheduled around the little ones (or lack there of). Your eating is scheduled around the little ones (leftover mashed banana anyone).  Your movie watching, “relaxing”, and even bathroom going are scheduled around the little ones. Yet, it is ALL worth it.

Sky turned 10 months on the 15th… one week ago. I can’t BELIEVE how fast he is growing and learning.  I love seeing the world through his eyes.  Every corner of the room is interesting.  Every dust mite underneath the bookshelf. Every crumb on the counter. Even though he challenges me to be more patient, more loving, less frustrated, a better house keeper, better at time management, better at giving of myself, better at loving my husband, better at appreciating my alone time with the Lord – my heart is still filled with immense love and heart filled joy at the thought that God chose me to be his mommy. The challenge of each and every day of the diaper laundry and clothes folding and bottle rinsing and constant breastmilk pumping…all of it is to love my baby boy, and it is ALL so worth it.

Around 9 months he really started getting around.  No more pulling himself along the ground for Sky. He has been crawling everywhere and pulling himself up on everything.  Cruising along the couches and trying to stand by himself.  He pulls himself up on my legs and laughs hysterically when I pick him up in my arms.  He thinks it’s funny when I say the word “boo,” and the most interesting toy can be as simple as little bowls.  He loves to cuddle with mommy and his smile lights up my heart even on those days that are trying. Whenever music plays his bounces on his little cloth diapered butt and claps his hands in his own little rhythm.  He loves throwing the ball with his daddy or anything that he can reasonably hold in his hand.  Recently he tries to stand in the tub and has figured out how to splash the surface of the water so mommy almost gets wet too.  He swims around the tub like it is his own personal pool in the backyard.

To him, life is so simple. Eat, play, sleep. Eat, play, sleep. Love mommy. Love daddy. Sleep some more. And through all that he learns and observes and truly sees God’s beautiful creations.

I love my growing 10-month old because he encourages me to open my eyes to the wonders around us and to better appreciate the blessings in our every day lives.  He encourages me to be INTENTIONAL with my time and my thoughts and my actions.  It is the little moments that matter and the little moments that make a difference. I appreciate that he shows me these each and every day, and this is one of the many reasons why I love him.

(Again, besides the obvious that he is just so cute.)

Cute St. Patty’s Day Outfit!

I’m not very good at decorating my house for holidays, and I don’t buy clothes for myself or Tom either. But my awesome sister-in-law makes adorable baby clothes, especially little boy ties and bow ties on onesies!!! She is sending me a super cute St. Patty’s day outfit for Sky. So excited! Blessed to have such wonderful family 🙂

Sky will be able to wear it for the Odell’s St. Patrick’s 5k run we are doing this weekend :)!!

If you are interested in her making anything, let me know 🙂 She’s trying to start her own business some day soon!

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A Prayer For New Moms

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We are officially entering a new stage in life. First we were married. Then expecting. And then we had a beautiful baby boy. But now that little baby is learning how to move around! He’s pulling himself around on the ground. Pulling himself to a standing position, and tomorrow I’m sure he’ll be walking! Then next week he’ll be starting his first day of Kindergarten, the week after that he’ll be starting high school, and the week after that we’ll be sending him off to college! Okay, okay, I kid. But he is about to be a toddler! What am I to do with a toddler?

Most days I feel like time is slipping through my fingers. It is rushing by way too fast! I don’t want this time to leave. I want to live in this moment forever! I love this time with my little baby. I love spending time with him after work and on the weekends. I love nursing him in the morning and cuddling until it’s time to get up. I love the way he sees the world and his new experiences. Snuggles on the couch and trying new foods are all amazing adventures. But I think I also love this time because I’m now comfortable with this stage in life. This initial excitement of a brand new baby who mostly sleeps, eats, and poops is do so sweet and uet quickly comes to a close.

This whole “toddler” stage comes with so many unknowns. We have to baby proof, what? We have to pack snack foods for the baby? Do I go with quick and easy? Paleo? Organic? We have to buy a new, bigger car seat? Convertible, all-in-one, rear-facing, forward-facing and boosters are all choices? What about potty training and talking and swimming lessons and arts and crafts? So many things!!! And sometimes soooo overwhelming, especially when information/advice contradicts itself.

Here is my prayer for all new mothers, old mothers and grandmothers who ever have or will say the words above. I love this prayer that I found on page 9 in Desperate: Hope For the Mom Who Needs to Breathe by Sarah Mae. (Which by the way you definitely have to read if you are a mom).

“Lord, teach me how to be a mother. I feel so inadequate. I don’t know what to do. But you are my son’s heavenly Father, and you love him even more than I do, so please show me your way and help me to know how to do the right things.”

I love that and pray it almost every day. And that, that is what brings me peace as we enter this new stage of “toddler”.